Tonight we took the girls to the homecoming football game and despite the home team’s score, we had a grand time. It’s Fall already, but the evening was incongruously warm and the mosquitoes were out in drives. Seats were hard to come by but eventually a few empty bleacher seats became available. We settled in and our oldest happily munched popcorn, while her baby sister took in the surroundings. Young children screamed and galavanted along the fence line, consistently blocking our view, and I was torn. On the one hand, they’re just kids having a good time, but on the other, I couldn’t help but thinking, “Where the shit are these kids’ parents and why aren’t they controlling them?” I think back to the Louis CK bit where he talks about how he likes his kids but doesn’t generally care for other children. There’s validity in that statement. I love my girls but other children annoy me and there behavior feels insufferable. I don’t know how many more football games we will make it to this season, but as the girls get older I know that Friday evenings will be spent the local stadium.
Great outlook! Our experiences creating meaning for our lives. The meaning we make tends to determine the path that unfolds before us.
School starts back up tomorrow and I’m filled with both excitement and dread. It’s nice to be able to start over, introduce new elements to the curriculum, tweak stuff that worked, lose what didn’t. At the same time, I have a rough idea of what I’m teaching throughout the year and it’s daunting to see the next nine months laid out like that. I always have this fear that I’m going to mess it up somehow. As much as teachers are scrutinized by the public, I think we scrutinize ourselves much more harshly and regularly. I want to do a good job and get the students interested. And for the students who by 9th grade have already decided they don’t care about school, well, I just want to get them to try. I’m tired. I’m going to read and then go to bed. In the immortal words of Joseph Campbell, “Follow your bliss”. Goodnight folks.
Saturday is my “cheat day” on the slow carb diet outlined in Tim Ferris’ “4 Hour Body”. Trying a new church in the morning, so the alarm will sound early. Lots of delicious food today. Eggs, hash browns, and biscuits for breakfast, usual combo of beans, veggies, and chicken for lunch, and Peanut Sesame Noodles for dinner. My wife and daughter made chocolate & peanut butter chip cookies for a treat. This program is working out well. Seeing positive results. Didn’t do any writing today. Working through my third short story. Watching Bojack Horseman. I should get to sleep. Enjoying Fixed Gear Red American Ale. Goodnight.